24th May 2012: That awkward moment when panic sets in. So… Here I am again. This time with a journal entry. I was actually really proud of all the work I put into getting Ivy completed. But the back of the leotard got caught in the zip when I was packing and…yeah… :/ Disaster struck.
I've had to remove all of the ivy from an entire segment of the top back to stop it from ripping. This means there's now a 4inch deep segment of green fabric without any leaves on it all around the top of the back (similar idea to where a bra strap fits). It's neat, and I was told that since it's the back it wouldn't really matter…but I feel like it's a bit of a let down now. Mostly since it was the only costume I've made that wasn't complete shit.
Which brings me onto problem number #2! I was researching Ivy cosplayers for ideas on poses and stuff in case I did somehow get collared into photos that I usually avoid like the plague…but I'm really paranoid about the way people slate these other amazing people. I don't really want to end up plastered on the internet as the 'fat ivy cosplayer.'
Which leaves me in a really awkward place. I want to come hang out the with DC gang, since they seem so lovely, but I am so undeniably scared of getting ripped the piss out of for looking awful. If they can attack people that look phenomenal, what hope in hell do I have?! :(
Genuinely might just have to skip her altogether.