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23 Sep 2011 - 20:4570676
Ok got a rant now:

My dad comes home drunk (typical for him), my mum goes to church and stuff right? Never been into god but now is.

He comes home, says to me that I making a mistake about moving out with my boyfriend shouts at me and now is having a go at my mum for no reason. Tried to reason with them both but they aint listening.

When people argue near me it makes me feel so sick.....now all I want is to see my boyfriend and have a cuddle and I cant even do that. Feel like crying, punching something or just curling up and dying in a corner.

Why cant life be simple?


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23 Sep 2011 - 21:0670678
Quote NightmareWings:
Ok got a rant now:

My dad comes home drunk (typical for him), my mum goes to church and stuff right? Never been into god but now is.

He comes home, says to me that I making a mistake about moving out with my boyfriend shouts at me and now is having a go at my mum for no reason. Tried to reason with them both but they aint listening.

When people argue near me it makes me feel so sick.....now all I want is to see my boyfriend and have a cuddle and I cant even do that. Feel like crying, punching something or just curling up and dying in a corner.

Why cant life be simple?


He's telling you you're making a mistake because he doesn't want to see you get hurt.


23 Sep 2011 - 21:5470682
I know, but I have to branch out at some point.


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24 Sep 2011 - 11:4970694
Quote NightmareWings:
Ok got a rant now:

My dad comes home drunk (typical for him), my mum goes to church and stuff right? Never been into god but now is.

He comes home, says to me that I making a mistake about moving out with my boyfriend shouts at me and now is having a go at my mum for no reason. Tried to reason with them both but they aint listening.

When people argue near me it makes me feel so sick.....now all I want is to see my boyfriend and have a cuddle and I cant even do that. Feel like crying, punching something or just curling up and dying in a corner.

Why cant life be simple?


Cause he's drunk, I imagine, he's not expressing himself properly. He doesn't want you to get hurt and he's also being a dad and not wanting his daughter to move out. Dad's do that. They always will. Mine is currently getting a bit funny with my planning on moving into a house share with my friends - and I don't even LIVE with him


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24 Sep 2011 - 21:4270724
I'm miserable. Utterly miserable.

So I'm going to rage here. Apologies in advance for spreading the misery.

I lost my job yesterday, because some heartless, no talent jobsworth decided that she, as the new line manager wanted to put her own stamp on things. It would be fine even if this would have improved things at student support, but it hasn't. Students are going to suffer for her decisions, she's a hack, a complete moron and fu^kwit.

So now, because of this woman, this moron, I don't have a job. I was one of the best at my job but I stood up to her and her decisions and told her how I felt.

Consequently, now, because she's a fu^kwit, a talentless hack, self important, self opinionated cow so many people are going to suffer her incompetence.

She's destroying the work the previous co-ordinator did, she's destroying student support and removing the notetaking / scribing facilities which are central to much of the support. Describing them as not benefitting the students, saying that even if the students don't write notes they can understand they learn through "kinetic memory".

HACK, MORON, BI^CH. She hasn't a clue, not one iota of sense in her blonde, middle aged, fat head.

She accused me of not understanding boundaries, told me I couldn't be friends with students if I had the new job. I told her in no uncertain terms what I thought about that.

I'm also a post-grad student myself, everyone knows everyone in Britain's smallest university. She understands NOTHING.

How can you support people with disabilities with no trust between you and them? How can you look after people with mental health issues, insure that there aren't problems if they don't feel they can open up to you?

I have a house to pay for, bills to pay, a car to run and a Masters to pay for and have no job.

I worked all summer in temping agencies trying to scrape enough together to keep me before my first pay day of the academic year. I've done the worst jobs, been treated like dirt, worked 10+ hour shifts without a break and been assumed stupid because I've been temping. It was ok though, I didn't mind because I had something to go back to.

Now it's gone I don't have anything. I can't see an end to this work and I'm falling into utter despair. Waiting to hear about whether I'd got the job I couldn't keep it together, now the smallest things are sending me off into floods of tears.

I have another shift in another hell hole tomorrow, still temping. But this is all in the wrong place, I can't go back to my home until I have a job ready up there... and who knows when that will be.

Migraines are increasing in frequency and because of the stress I can't even monitor triggers because I'm not calming down. I'm having to take codeine daily, mostly pre-emptively but I'm not supposed to because it's addictive, but if I don't I'm useless because of my head.

I started getting migraine with aura too. It's scary and it doesn't go away even if I close my eyes.

The last year has been hell. Some people would say where's my positive karma? I'm asking God, please, where are my blessings?

Additionally:

I hate myself. I hate my body. I hate that I couldn't get the job back. I hate that I have so much pride in myself that I can't handle stuff like this. I hate that I have to pretend I'm ok for other people that count on me being ok so I can look after them.

I hate that I'm in a position where people look to my to be strong when this last year has totally shattered me.I feel like I'm sitting on a floor picking up all the little pieces and every time I'm picking up the last bit someone comes behind me and pushes me over, causing me to drop all the bits again.

I hate that I won't let people support me. I hate that I won't open up. I hate that I have a poker face which people misread. I hate that I use bravado to give the wrong impressions.

I'm just...



Last edited by Jenivix (24 Sep 2011 - 21:57)
25 Sep 2011 - 11:5270744
I've been dying my hair for years now so I decided to stop before I do some damage.

I Tried to strip the colour out of my hair and it turned ginger.... it really doesn't suit me.


25 Sep 2011 - 14:0770750
Quote Black-Cat-1:
I've been dying my hair for years now so I decided to stop before I do some damage.

I Tried to strip the colour out of my hair and it turned ginger.... it really doesn't suit me.


but I think it looks nice! (although I do like to take the mick )


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25 Sep 2011 - 14:2070752
@ silver-vixi: Seriously, I think you really need to sit down with someone you trust and tell them exactly what you've told all of us on here. Because it's really obvious you're in a really bad place and it's driving you crazy.

I know that you need to have money and a job, but I think jobs are never worth breaking your back over. I had a job where I literally dreaded going in every day, and nothing is worth that kind of stress.

Think about what you want in the long run, I don't know if you have a certain job you want or anything. But there's no sense working yourself to the bone if it's just driving you nuts.

Call your parents, just do something to reduce yourself of the stress, because having that much stress for a long period of time is never good for you.

Just have a talk with someone you trust, they probably know your position better than we do, but let us know how you get on either way.


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25 Sep 2011 - 16:1470757
Quote Black-Cat-1:
I've been dying my hair for years now so I decided to stop before I do some damage.

I Tried to strip the colour out of my hair and it turned ginger.... it really doesn't suit me.


I've stopped dyeing my hair for a while, as my hair is molting more than ever.


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25 Sep 2011 - 16:2370758
EDIT: According to Leadmill, nobody is allowed to have a rant in an unhappy thread, so do as he says before he smacks your bottom and sends you to a night in the cupboard under the stairs.



Last edited by Mycroftwave (25 Sep 2011 - 18:39)
25 Sep 2011 - 17:0070764
This entire thread makes me facepalm


25 Sep 2011 - 17:0770767
Quote Leadmill:
This entire thread makes me facepalm

Your face makes me facepalm.
Also, you must have absolutely no life if you've read every single post on every single page, to say that the entire thread makes you facepalm.
Therefore, your entire life makes me facepalm, SON.



Last edited by Mycroftwave (25 Sep 2011 - 17:15)
25 Sep 2011 - 17:4570770
Oh dear, touch a nerve did I.

Well if we were to compare you and I, I would say that e-crying on a cosplay forum rather than seeking professional help is facepalm worthy indeed.

If you really are dead set on killing yourself then please talk to the Samaritans first (08457 90 90 90). They might give you the help you seem to think you need.


25 Sep 2011 - 18:1170772
Quote Leadmill:
Oh dear, touch a nerve did I.

Well if we were to compare you and I, I would say that e-crying on a cosplay forum rather than seeking professional help is facepalm worthy indeed.

If you really are dead set on killing yourself then please talk to the Samaritans first (08457 90 90 90). They might give you the help you seem to think you need.


To a certain extent I agree with you - there's nothing anyone can do about 90% of the stuff people say on here, but it does help to just rage at things XD;;;

I do apologise, I needed to rage that stuff out somewhere it won't be found by the powers that be.

On the other hand, serious things, life and death situations cannot be solved here - but can if not solved be alleviated else where, like you rightly pointed out, the Samaritans or a whole host of other support networks.

As a now ex student support worker (thank you very much cow-face) I would also suggest that those with serious problems refrain from trying to solve them here and allow themselves to be directed to people who can help them if their situation is dire.

People want to help, but the internet and a forum is not the place to try and get help for serious problems. Friendship yes, but serious problems need serious support from people who know what to do and say.

Not from well wishers, no matter how good the intention they can't give you the support you need.

On the other hand, this thread stops multiple threads popping up. At least it can all be confined in one space!

@Han - Thank You. Sorry that you read all that D=... I was so angry and upset, still am to a certain extent but a lot better now I've slept and got over the shock and initial panic ><;

I still don't know what to do D= but we'll see.



Last edited by Jenivix (25 Sep 2011 - 18:19)
25 Sep 2011 - 18:2770775
Quote silver-vixi:
To a certain extent I agree with you - there's nothing anyone can do about 90% of the stuff people say on here, but it does help to just rage at things XD;;;

I do apologise, I needed to rage that stuff out somewhere it won't be found by the powers that be.


Why are you apologising for writing unhappy/angry things in a thread for unhappy things? Don't apologise to the guy, it has nothing to do with him.
It's personal choice to rant publicly, or not. You can't have an opinion on that.


25 Sep 2011 - 18:3170776
Quote Leadmill:
Oh dear, touch a nerve did I.

Well if we were to compare you and I, I would say that e-crying on a cosplay forum rather than seeking professional help is facepalm worthy indeed.

If you really are dead set on killing yourself then please talk to the Samaritans first (08457 90 90 90). They might give you the help you seem to think you need.


I have my own help thankyouverymuch. I see a care coordinator/psychiatric nurse WEEKLY, that I also speak to on the phone a few times a week, and also my doctor I see once a week and speak to a couple of times a week, so before you stick your ore in, pipe it.
Don't tell me not to rant in a thread that's SUPPOSED to be for ranting.
I appreciate the offer of a stupid pointless phone number, but don't take the piss and then try to be nice.



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25 Sep 2011 - 18:4270779
The point being your 'help' clearly isn't working.

But as you seem to be set in your ways, I wish you better luck in your future endevours..



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25 Sep 2011 - 18:5870781
Quote Leadmill:
The point being your 'help' clearly isn't working.

But as you seem to be set in your ways, I wish you better luck in your future endevours..


That's because as I mentioned, I have a mental illness, and mental illness' don't just go overnight.

I won't be replying to you if you reply again.


25 Sep 2011 - 19:2070783
Why does Leadmill cease to exist in this thread?


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25 Sep 2011 - 20:3770785
I have to agree with Leadmill, If you really have such a serial Illnes, Why on gods earth do you feel you should brandish it on a public forum...



Last edited by ryaoki (25 Sep 2011 - 20:45)
25 Sep 2011 - 20:5170787
people! It is just a forum!

If people want to talk about things that make them unhappy in an unhappy thread then they can but if your just here to troll then that is your problem


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25 Sep 2011 - 20:5470788
Yea, because remember kids! Its a COSPLAYYYYYY FORUM!


25 Sep 2011 - 21:3470795
Quote ryaoki:
Yea, because remember kids! Its a COSPLAYYYYYY FORUM!


This right here.

Me and Luke (The one who started this thread) were talking about this tonight actually- this thread was never intended for such serious stuff. It was just a lighthearted 'COSTUMES FUUUUUUUU' thread. (Unless somewhere in the 59 pages the topic has been officially changed, I don't know since I haven't cared to read them all...)

Infact here's some copy 'n' paste quoting for ya:

"The Un-Happy thread
I suppose its handy Karma to have an opposite thread ^.^ just somewhere to quietly rage about a costume or something."

So yeah.. Post what you want, (who am I to say otherwise?) but lets bear the above in mind, yeah?


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25 Sep 2011 - 22:0870799
Quote Fables:

Me and Luke (The one who started this thread) were talking about this tonight actually- this thread was never intended for such serious stuff.

My point exactly, it's gone from "Damn can't find my seam ripper" to "GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD". Hence the facepalm.

This thread has run its course, and now it's time to take it out back and shoot it Old Yeller style.


25 Sep 2011 - 22:3070802
Quote Fables:
Quote ryaoki:
Yea, because remember kids! Its a COSPLAYYYYYY FORUM!


This right here.

Me and Luke (The one who started this thread) were talking about this tonight actually- this thread was never intended for such serious stuff. It was just a lighthearted 'COSTUMES FUUUUUUUU' thread. (Unless somewhere in the 59 pages the topic has been officially changed, I don't know since I haven't cared to read them all...)

Infact here's some copy 'n' paste quoting for ya:

"The Un-Happy thread
I suppose its handy Karma to have an opposite thread ^.^ just somewhere to quietly rage about a costume or something."

So yeah.. Post what you want, (who am I to say otherwise?) but lets bear the above in mind, yeah?

The OP didn't state it was strictly cosplay related in the first post, so that's nobody's fault. It's general discussion, it's here for mostly off-topic things.

Maybe he should edit his post then if people can only moan about costumes.

OR, create a new thread in the COSPLAY section and name it "WHAT'S BUGGING YOU ABOUT YOUR COSPLAY RIGHT NOW?"

Y'know, get my drift?



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